San Antonio has been a God send. Jesus knew exactly where we needed to be when we needed it. From the doctors, to the people we have met we have been blessed! To some people it may seem like we just want to pack up and leave but for the Reese family this move is bittersweet. I speak for both Derek and I knowing we are both on the same page, we are so ready to move on and not have the constant reminder of how sad we have been for the last few months. The grief that has rocked our family, not just the grief a of losing a child, but the grief of never being able to have another child, the grief of not really knowing how to move on.
The best way I know how to deal with it all is to say that moving gives us a clean slate. Today I was reminded that we are given challenges so that we may choose to believe that God is still good, but in that same breath we are given the opportunity to doubt, and lately that has been where I am, doubtful. I realize day by day, life is always going to have struggles, and we have choices how we will deal with it. Right now I chose to move on, continue to lay my doubts, my heart, my pain at the feet of Jesus. Moving away from San Antonio won't make it better, but it is another step in putting the sadness of the last year to rest.
I heard this on K-Love the other day and it was the perfect description of what we have been going through the last few months. Have a wonderful day friends, enjoy every moment, you never know what the future holds.