Beyond Frustration

I am feeling beyond frustrated today.  I keep trying to see the bright side of things but it sure is hard.  I know grieving is different for everyone, but I feel so alone, stranded, and like I am left in the ocean to drown.  I just feel hurt.  I know as an Army wife you suck it up and roll with the punches, but I am sick of sucking it up, for once I just want my needs, my emotional well being to come before the needs of the Army.  Some days, you grasp for hope in the smallest things, my hope today comes from knowing, I will see my family in Cali very soon, I need them, I miss them.